Today I felt a lot of jealousy over my friends and classmates. I feel horrible because of this and it is draining all my energy.I told my mom about the grades of some of my classmates in the OJT which we just finished and she was mad at me and said "why don't you ask your professor why your grade is like that and tell him that you are so pitiful since you did a lot of work and the location of your OJT compared to your other classmates is closer they don't need to travel and the company they work for gives them allowance, so for a little consideration for the cost and energy you spent why not give you a high grade just like your classmates.Its Unfair for your situation".
That hit me I was becoming a wallflower again and I'm repeating the same mistake I had back in high school. I need to talk to my prof and ask him about it.
Next is the pre-oral defense(grrrr), a group got a higher grade than us and they were noticed for best presentation.
On the final oral defense, I'm guessing they would be a tough contender for best thesis, I need to pull myself together and start working on the Online System me and my groupmates are making.
Last thing I'm sooooo jealous about is that my friends and other classmates have time to hangout and bond with their old friends/classmates while I'm here stuck at home during the sembreak doing a lot of stuff that stresses me out.
My mom keeps nagging me about this grades and I'm getting mad at her for making me feel so sad since I already feel so lonely and then adding stress by putting pressure on me to do this and that.Urgghhh.
Do they even know what I feel!!! I want to break down(2nd time of the week that I said this).
Hope this song cheers me up,
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